Having issues getting motivated to do anything for the rest of the year...

I don't know as I'm burned out as just tired of the "pack-horse" position I am currently occupying.  Need a change of scenery....any ideas???

For the first time in my life I have a mission I hope to accomplish before I die (skydiving does NOT count).  Background to this: Teaching in a land locked school district is not the most fun job I've ever had.  But I really think that God wants me here....it's home.  Problem with this: THERE IS NO MONEY TO BUY TECHNOLOGY!  Ok, now understand that when I say NO MONEY what I actually mean is NO MONEY for the foreign language department.  Seriously, we are having to swipe other people's stuff (with their permission of course) in order to show notes, etc. on the overhead LCD projector.  That SHOULD NOT BE! 

Now, I've been passionate about various things in life that ended up fizzling...didn't care as much as I should have.  But this is just annoying the tar out of me.  Seriously, my new motto in life is: ignorance is NOT bliss.  It's not.  Because of our government and their stupidity (old geezers) they have put the priority in schools on the WRONG STINKIN' THING!!!  (Here goes the rant...please forgive)

People of the United States, understand something PLEASE....We are NOT the only country in the freakin' world out there.  There are other countries that are (brace yourselves) DIFFERENT than us.  Heaven forbid that France or Spain (or Russia, Romania, Turkey, Iran, Iraq, PICK A COUNTRY) should actually NOT speak English in them???  My God (not using it in vain), how have we become so stupid...neh...IGNORANT???  Have we truly regressed to mindless apes who don't care about others in the world....thank you Federal Government and Hollywood. 

Here's the problem: How does one person (I name myself at this point...) combat a nationwide epidemic of ignorance and hatred?  The only thing I can think of is to show them that other people in the world are the same as us, just different practices and faux pas.  How does one go about that?  With computers and such?  Not, with a transparency machine!  SERIOUSLY???  I look for money the government puts out there to take in the form of grants...are there ANY for foreign language???  Nope...nadda.  Now, it's getting to the point where I may end up selling my soul to the devil and go to Hollywood, try to make it big and donate ALL (and I do mean ALL) of my money to foreign language education.  Granted, I will end up in Hell for it, but ignorance is not the way to go.  I cannot sit back and watch this bigotry (wrong word...only one I can come up with...) 

I give a shout out to all those out there...If you are on Facebook, I ask that you join the group I make (right after this post called "Ignorance is NOT bliss!"  I want the awareness out there.  This maybe the dumbest cause in the WORLD, but ya know what, I will gladly sell my soul to see it gone from the U.S....other countries DON'T HAVE TO BE LIKE US!!!  GOD, PLEASE HELP US SEE THIS!  We are not the end all be all country in the world...half the stuff we do around the world WE SHOULDN'T! (Not political statement at all....understand...I am for the war in Iraq...Bush needed to finish what Daddy Bush was told not to do in the early 90's.)

I think I'm done...I'll be back on it later.

I can't go on like this.  I've never been this way in my life and I want a change.  (No, I'm not thinking PERMANENT change...I'm not that sad about life.)  I've always been a heavy set person, except for ONE year of my life.  I was the thinnest and healthiest I've EVER been.  I was at 165 and I felt like a princess that all should love.  Now, four year later, I'm thinking I should be the court jester or the village idiot..What the heck happened???? 


I looked at myself tonight with blunt honesty and said "This can't go on...I'm killing myself without realizing it."  So, this is my pledge to those out there that actually read this site: I'm getting back on TRAC.  I want a lifestyle change and not a temporary fix.  Hey WW...I'm back!!!

Now, the challenge for me is to go to the meetings and the weigh-ins and take a good hard look at my life.  And make the time for the meetings...:)